爱の恋

Since the dawn of man, there has always been love. Its all due to how you interpret the world around you, what entices your passion, the definition of love is whatever that brings you to the blissful state. The person, the moment, the feeling of being lost without love. Thus my very own production of love stories showing the existence of love, revealing in your own hearts

爱の游戏
Love Game

[ Chapter 3 ]

If love does not know how to give and take without restrictions, it is not love, but a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and a minus.

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“ Good evening, singapore ! this is DJ phileos on air at FM 14.3, bringing you " love is in the air " ~ cue in ”

Love, love, love !!! we almost hear it everyday , everywhere , it is used so often that we don’t really give it a thought.

The question that needs to be answered is what really is love?

Was love created so that hate can be suppressed?
Is love something that both man and woman hope for when their world comes crashing down on them?
Does love help relief pain and suffering felt by victims of natural disasters?

Aphrodite, Venus, Cupid, and Eros were well know as the gods of love and sex by Greeks and Romans well before Christ was born, which basically makes love a very old subject. Yet this still does not answer the question, what really is love? If you were to flip thru a dictionary, love would mean a strong feeling of affection or strong feeling linked with sexual attraction. But does that really define the meaning of love ?

well .. at least to me .. love is a feeling that can never be defined, you can only experience through it to find your real meaning of love ...

When you talk about love to someone, what usually will be said is , love is pure, love is from the heart, love is special. Is this really true or is it just that we are afraid of being alone without a partner ? That answer can only be found within ourselves to that someone in your heart now. & well it'll lead us to the topic of the night, True Love ... does it really exists ?

The pureness of True Love is one thing that keeps people going, throughout their life. The simplest things that you do for her will get happiness in return. One sad thing about the pureness of True Love is the existence of temptation. Whether is it materialism or lust, people always find themselves stuck in a situation and therefore love died down in time…

As far as I can see, we all yearn for that simple undying love that rumors to exist. Its out there somewhere, clouded by the deceiving facts of life and overshadowed by the logical mindset of humans.

An interesting sharing by one of our listeners mcmq. As much as she wants to believe in the existence of true love, she is held back by the harshness & reality of love.

True love comes straight from the heart not the mind. It can starts off with a simple chat between two strangers, from the first conversation comes the mutual respect. Soon, without realizing it, there’s a feeling of likeness in the air. From likeness, it gradually grows to love. But true love does not end here.

From love, there’s commitment. The feeling stop you from starting any other possible cases of likeness with other people. The same feeling which get you back to the same person whom you have been sharing your life with. Many people never went to the stage of commitment, only to blame themselves later for never experiencing true love. If loving is easy, living your hectic life would be easier.

True love is a gift. Though finding it may be hard, keeping it is harder than anyone can imagine. We struggle through all our life in search of it, yet when we find it, it just disappear. Just like sand sipping your hands, never to return again.

True love means happiness for your partner even if it means sufferings for you. As much as we would want to deny it, we do sacrifice for love. A simple give in during a heated argument can prevent harsh words being used and breaking of hearts. So next time when you think your partner is unreasonable, think again. You could make he/she less annoyed by giving in just this once. You may give in many, many times in your relationship but at least you know its worth the effort when the storm is over.

True love will be tested one day, only then the declaration for one another is truthful. Temptations will always be there, there will always be someone nicer, younger or more beautiful than your current one. Only will that day tell your truthfulness towards your heart and your soul.

True Love exists deep down in our hearts…

Hope someday everyone of you can find it ... for it is still lurking somewhere within your heart, waiting for that moment to be reveal .. this is DJ phileos on FM 14.3, have a good evening with your loved ones, ~ adieus ~

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" tsk tsk .. true love .. what a joke by this phileos ! "

Love to me is just like a game. Eventually it'll result in someone winning or losing it. Until now I've yet to taste that bitterness of defeat, for those that are willing to play this game are not to my match at all. They only end up in sorrow & despair while I'll just soak in the sense of achievement by winning the game.

I does not spare a glance to love,
when people around me sunk into the abyss of love, boasting to me about their stories, I was unaffected.
I adhere to my free and unrestrained principle, & even ridiculed them for their so called love, & scoffed at them when they are suffering from love.

" End of day, those women are just afraid of being alone .. they just need someone to fill up their sense of emptiness .. tsk & we men are the victims .. how stupid is that .. isn't it .. stanley ? tsk ... " I spoke in a bitter tone.

" yes .. you're right ~ Jay !! always right ~ those women just deserved it when they lose that " game " to you .. hehe ... " Stanley reply in a careful manner.

" tsk ... by the way whats the schedule today ? "

" Eh .. let me see ... a talk show programme , then a meeting with director with regards to your album promotion ... thats about it .. "

I gave a sigh, before acknowledging to stanley's words.

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If you weren’t existed in this world, how would the lives of the people around you be?
Will they be happier?
Will they be sadder?
Will this world still be the same?

All of us asked ourselves this question at least once in our lifetime. Some were asked upon by others.

What is the meaning of existence?
Why were you created to suffer at the point of birth?

Some people are born rich while others struggled to survive through a day’s meal.
Some people are born smart while others struggled to get themselves through college.

You looked at those who are financially stronger than yourself.
You envy their abilities to get what they want.

Then you would ask yourself
“Why were you born?”

Be it a mistake, a moment of extended pleasure or even planned for by your parents.

Your very existence means a lot to the people around you.

You give your parents someone to scold when you don’t well for your grades.
You give your classmates your notes to copy or normally it would be vice versa.
You give your friends moments of laughter when all of you get together.
You give your first love to your crush.
You give your first girlfriend your first kiss.
You give your parents their first allowance.
You give your wife her first wedding ring.
You give your child their first breath of life.

Then you looked back at all the memories that you’ve gain and all the others that people remember you for.

Isn’t it wonderful that because you are existed to experience the meaning of life?

“Love is you, you have to love yourself before you learn to love others”

this is Yuri, starring as the guest DJ for the night. Hope you all enjoy my session on air, & till then ... byes ~~~ !!

" Good job ~ Yuri .. can consider letting you be DJ too .. heh .. " Gina gave a pat on my shoulder.

" haas ~ thanks .. truthfully speaking I'm looking foward to be one if the company has such plans for me .. maybe letting me feature on a programme similar to the one DJ phileos is hosting .. hehe "

" hahaha ~ well .. I can consider that & provided if any of the radio station willing to give you that chance .. hehe ... come lets hurry for the next schedule !! " Gina spoke in hastily tone.

" yes ! boss !!! " I teased gina as I fasten my pace to the car with her for the next planned schedule.

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*applause*

" welcome to Pahim's talk show ... tonight we've a very speical guest with us .. the hottest singer in town at the moment, the prince of love ballad that took the industry by storm with his love songs ... everyone lets welcome Jay ! ~ ! hohoho ~ "

*applause*

" thank you everyone ~ " I waved & smiled my way to the stage.

" honoured to have you here today with us .. " love phobia " topping on the chart for 14 consecutive weeks, & now your " love game " is en route to creating another music record on the charts, you've surely taken the music industry by storm .. Jay ~ so whats the key to all this records you're creating .. hohoho ~ "

" firstly .. I'll have to say all this records & achievements were created by my beloved fans out there .. if not for their support, I won't be able to bring my music to this level of achievement .. of course not forgetting my entertainment company for giving me this chance too ... hee "

" yes indeed .. is not an easy feat to have reach this stage .. especially for a newcomer ~ so how're you taking it ? with all the limelight shone you ? I'm sure is a very different experience before you turn famous .. hoho "

" yes .. definitely ~ a major change over in my life ... in fact I'm still adapting to it ... "

" ar .. the irony behind all this ... though you claim you're adapting .. it seems you've find yourself comfortable in where you're today ... look at all the scandals with these female artises .. hoho ~ you sure are creating a record in those headlines too .. hoho "

" hee .. like you've mentioned its scandals .. no truth in it ... these female artises just happen to be working partners, & well the magazines just decide to make it a big news .. shrugs* thats where they are coming from ... i guess is something I've to learn in this industry too .. isn't it "

" hmm .. yes definitely .. so since you're so well versed in love ballads, earning you the nickname " the prince of love ballad ", I presume you must have some experience with love that enable you to bring out the essence in those love ballads .. "

" haha ~ well shrugs* perhaps ... "

" aww .. so secretive ... hohoho so do you know love ? as in what is love to you ? "

At that moment of time, I just stared at the camera screen with blankness.

" do i know love "

those were the words that I've always been asking with the girls that I've dated. They've never been able to give me an satisfactory answer. They don’t know about love as they probably only want companionship, they want attention and someone to pamper them.

As i continued to look at the screen, i realised that i was not able to answer the question outright too.

" hmmm ... " I stuttered at the question.

" judging from the sad tone in your love ballads .. love must have hurt you alot .. hohoho "

" haha I've no reply to your answer .. since I've never really experience true love before .. shrugs* "

At the end of the whole show, i didn't really vent my fustrations on the host or stanley for those remarks & questions that were asked. I guess the host just ignite some spark in me that set me thinking what is all about love ? To think I often asked others about what is love & yet I've no answer to this question too. I just sat at the car, & shut my eyes, reflecting on this question that hasn't puzzled me all this while until today. All the previous thoughts about love as an game just halt for that moment of time, i start to question myself is that really love ?

Just then, an voice from the radio interrupted my thoughts.

Your very existence means a lot to the people around you.

You give your parents someone to scold when you don’t well for your grades.
You give your classmates your notes to copy or normally it would be vice versa.
You give your friends moments of laughter when all of you get together.
You give your first love to your crush.
You give your first girlfriend your first kiss.
You give your parents their first allowance.
You give your wife her first wedding ring.
You give your child their first breath of life.

Then you looked back at all the memories that you’ve gain and all the others that people remember you for.

Isn’t it wonderful that because you are existed to experience the meaning of life?

“Love is you, you have to love yourself before you learn to love others”

this is Yuri, starring as the guest DJ for the night. Hope you all enjoy my session on air, & till then ... byes ~~~ !!

“Love is you, you have to love yourself before you learn to love others”

I paused for that moment when i heard that.

[ To be cont.. ]

爱の游戏
Love Game

[ Chapter 2 ]

Power without love is reckless and abusive, and love without power is sentimental and anemic.

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“ Good evening, singapore ! this is DJ phileos on air at FM 14.3, bringing you " love is in the air " ~ cue in ”

The phrase, “ love makes the world go round ” is very true. It is our driving force, for what ever reason it may be. Poems, plays, and legends can only briefly touch the true meaning of love. We can only feel what that meaning is, and express it in ways only we can understand towards another. The true question we should be asking is not, what is life, but what is love.

How can one truly define what love is? Not even an experienced person can truly grasp or explain love to its truest and deepest meaning. Its concepts are just a never ending story of an open book of experiences. But love does lie in one's heart, where memories are but shadows lingering in your soul.

What is love ? I do not know, but I'll do what I can, in the best possible way to lead you to the answers deep down in your heart ..

Hmm .. let me see, last week topic " Love Game " seems to be creating some commotions among you all, haha ~ I can see that some of you are starting to participate in this game too, by laying our your very own rules. We have rules for the ladies, rules for the guys, seems never-ending .. hurhur .. so how absurd or illogical these rules can be, has it ever come across your mind that “ love makes one's stupid because it takes a fool to truly love ” .. uh- that was shared by one of our listeners Pointe De Adora. She actually laid out a rule for the ladies, “ A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left ” , one of a famous saying by Marilyn Monroe. Take a moment to reflect upon what she says, for the ladies is it being fair to the guys ? & for the guys .. how sure are you when you claim you've give your 100% affection to the girl you like ?

Alritey ~ back to topic of this week “ Love is blind ? ”

Do you still remember your first kiss ? Did you keep your eyes open or closed? I bet most of us closed our eyes.. haha ~ Isn’t this the essence of “ love is blind ? ” You kiss them without fear, and without any sense of danger. You do not have to see the one you love to know you love them. You accept love on blind faith. Love is blind and for a moment we use this phrase to justify the obvious flaws we do not recognize in the people. Lovers are oblivious to the truth and therefore unable to be clear-sighted. It is a known fact that many of us are blinded by love and we act carelessly without assessing any of our actions, thus only to have regrets for any mistakes later on. So are you one of the many that are blinded by love ? & it all goes back to what Pointe de Adora has said, “ love makes one's stupid because it takes a fool to truly love ” so did you choose to be blinded or since the start you've already been blind ? End of day, we should just ask ourselves have we been a fool to the someone we love deeply ? & with that I shall end today's programme ... Hope everyone has a good evening spent with your loved ones ~ adieus ~

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" Gina .. who is this DJ phileos ? " I curiously asked.

" uh-uh ~ he is the one of the popular DJ around these days, capturing the heart of many listeners with his creativity live on air, & also his soothing & alluring voice that carrys an aura within attracting alot of people to listen to him .. " Gina replied.

" haha ~ its not really about that soothing voice & that aura he carrys within .. no doubt its a additional + points for him, but I'm more interested in what he shares on air with his listeners .. his topics are sure captivating ... hehe "

" duh .. its a love programme ... of course he needs to bring out that essence of love in the show, or else how he become a DJ .. tsk " Gina rebuke my opinions.

" nah .. to me it is more than the essence of the show .. no doubt its a love programme, & it easily attract the attention of many hearts, but somehow the way he presented it really made one reflect upon his/her own actions towards love .. "

" hmmm .. it seems you've reminded yourself of the unhappy past again .. Yuri you should know it better than anyone else especially after you've experience the pain & suffering of it .. why choose to believe it again ... you've already destroy your future once because of it ... why ? " Gina spoke in a angry tone.

" Gina .. you know ...... "

" Yes ~ I know & I always know that you shouldn't have destroyed your future, & now you've gotten back yourself a chance again ... as your best friend & manager, I'm not gonna let it happen again .. I've reprimanded myself all these years, if only I have not let you made that choice back then ... " Gina interrupted me before I could continue.

" Perhaps .. Gina ...... " I replied in a solemn manner towards her.

I just didn't want to complicate my relationship with her again, especially given the fact that she hasn't given up on me all these years. She has been begging the company all these years, just to give me this one more chance to once again stand back on stage & perform. It was all because of my stupidity back then, nearly choosing a path of no returns, that destroyed the once shining future that was laid for me. It was really like what DJ phileos has said, “ love makes one's stupid because it takes a fool to truly love ” I was the fool to have truely love someone I shouldn't have .. or should i say someone not worthy of my love ? Neverthless its all over ..

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It has been a tiring day for me as usual. I often question my choice towards this career. Many people envy the status & popularity I'm enjoying but do they know the sacrifices in exchange for all these ? They are just seeing the surface of me with the music I made, but do they really know what I'm trying to express through my songs, I often question the credibility of my so called fans screaming & running after me. Are they really that impressed by what I sing, when they can't even know the hidden feelings behind all these songs ...

I just laid back on the sofa & on the TV, questioning my own doubts towards the media industry. I've kinda adjusted myself to the digusted feeling I always have seeing myself on TV. I know its not me on TV, it is just the "Jay" that others have crafted in their made belief world. I'm just a crafted figurine in their world, just happens that I'm the most perfect figurine in their world. I can't commit mistakes like they do, My image to them must be 100% perfect, no flaws allowed .. or else it'll be game over for me.

I was switching the TV channels randomly until I heard my song sung on one of the channels. I immediately switched to that particular channel. It was not the first time I've heard or seen others singing my song on TV, but this voice just captivates my heart at that moment of time. It was a different rendition of my " Love Game " . I just sat back listening to this singer's rendition of " Love Game ". I was totally captivated by her singing & feel towards the song. This rendition was like singing out my exact feelings towards the song, this was what I really wanted to present to the people out there.

When love has no escape route,
When you are conquered by time,
Please do not forget the happiness we once have
The path of love that once belonged to us,
I still anticipate it, hoping for it

When love has no escape route,
When you give in to the worldly concessions,
Do not deny about the past that we once have,
For its a common memory shared by us,
& I will continue to chase it forever

* audience clapping *

" thank you ... "

" wow .. a different rendition of " Love Game " . Your soft, soothing tune just inject another kind of feel towards this song, so different from Jay .. hahaha but even after a long absence, you never fail to mesmerize me with your angelic voice ... everyone .. lets welcome our guest for today ... Yuri !!! "

" thank you everyone .. hi I'm Yuri ... nice to see you all once again .. hehe "

" Oh ... such a sweet voice ... hahaha so where have you been all this while ? Alot of fans missed you ... including me .. hahah "

" uh .. firstly I'll like to apologise for my long absence too .. I missed you fans, including you too .. heh "

" awww .. did you heard that everyone ... Yuri missed me !!! "

" heh .. well I've been travelling around during this period of time, taking a break from the industry, sourcing for my own inspirations. It has been rather fruitful, as I've seen alot & experiencing something totally different from my past usual routine. Somehow I felt I've grown alot during this period of time, & now I'm finally back. heh .. hopefully this new change in me will be able to bring my music to another level, influencing you all in a good way .. continuing to gain support from you all just like in the past .. heh "

" Oh .. we have definitely seen that change in you .. especially your rendition of the " Love Game " earlier on ..simply melt me .. hahaha "

" heh .. thank you ... "

" hmmm .. but why choose to sing Jay's song ? "

" uh .. all this while I never left the world of music once .. heh I still listen to new debut albums & stuffs .. heh .. this " Love Game " sort of captured my heart ... when I first listened to it ... heh "

" ooo ~ so may I asked Jay captured your heart, or the song ? hahahah "

" heh ... of course the song did ... heee "

" hahahah .. Jay .. don't feel upset ... on a better note .. this girl here appreciate your music talents more than your looks .. hahaha "

" heh .. well I can't deny that Jay really got the looks .. but I still love his music more .. I fell in love with his song when I first listen to it .. Somehow I could derive a feel deep down in his heart what he was trying to express through this song .. heh .. so I actually came up with my own rendition of " Love Game " expressing a different feel. "

" Yuri ? she could derive a feel deep down in my heart & actually express it out through the exact same song ? who is this Yuri ? How did she do that ? "

I started to question myself deep in my mind.

" Is all this just a hallucination ? am I too tired ? show gimmick ? did she really feel what I went through in my heart ? Was it pure conincdeince ? "

Endless of questions started to flow through my mind, for once after so long ... my faith towards my old self regained back. All these while, my old self was just hidden by the "Jay" everyone sees, just when my old self was beginning to sink into the abyss of no returns, Yuri pulled me back. I was all hesistant about what is going through in my mind now.

" RIng !!!! " my phone sounded interrupting my thoughts for that moment.

" Yes ? Stanley .. whats up again ? " I gave an irritated tone.

" Sorry to disturb ya .. but I thought I should tell you over the phone first ... the company has submitted your name to the TV reality series " We got Married " , ehmmm .. its not confirmed yet, so don't be worry okays .. I know you not really into these sort of programmes, but well its the company decision .. so..... "

" WHAT ? ! ? " I shouted angrily at stanley.

" Jay .. Don't get so angry over it ya ... you're just one of the nominees & may get selected ... nothing is confirmed !! chill okays ... hur "

" you guys just don't let me make my own decisions right ? come on ... gimme a break ... you should know ... getting married is the most absurd thing that can ever happen to me ... "

" I know .. Jay .. not to worry ... I assured you everything is under control & gonna be well taken care by me .. you should know my efficiency ... hur not to worry .. okays .. go rest & don't think about it ... " Stanley spoke in a pleading tone, appeasing my anger.

I just hung up the phone without replying.

" Me getting Married ? tsk .. ! "

I just couldn't imagine it, I shut my eyes off, drifting back to the "Jay" 's world.

[ To be cont.. ]

爱の游戏
Love Game

[ Chapter 1 ]

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.

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“ Good evening, singapore ! this is DJ phileos on air at FM 14.3, bringing you " love is in the air " ~ cue in ”

“ Everybody knows Valentine’s Day falls on the 14th of February. Nobody ever needs to tell you it's a special day, even though the government doesn't recognize it as a holiday. Yet the strange thing is, everybody seems to indulge into the very existence of this day. For this very day gives the feeling of acceptance by the very special someone deep in our heart. Someone whom we openly pour our emotions, and showered with love. The joy of receiving a Valentine's Day card or gift is always unexplainable with excitement bursting through the veins. So have you revceied any on this very day ?

well, not to worry .. if you haven't received any, I've yet to receive mine too .. haha .. well on a better note, you still have me accompanying you through this special day. On the headlines, we've an interesting article to share today, 143 couples gathered at the registrar of marriage to embark on this very special day of love as they took their vows. Coincidentally, our FM 14.3 matches that exact number of the 143 couples. So whats so special about this number 143 ?

143 is actually a code for " I love you " . One letter in I, Four in Love, and three in You. & there goes 143 ...

~Song~

Sometimes words may get in the way
of things that you really really mean to say
So I wanna tell you this time to make sure that how I really feel

Listen

There aren’t many more ways and words that I can say
So I choose to tell you how I feel in a numerical way
Got so tired of trying to find the most complicated way
To say it to you so I simplified and broke it down
To 143 – and that means I love you

Nice song ? hahaha .. well it was created by me randomly. Hmm .. hopefully I won't be receiving in complaints from you all with regards to my lousy voice .. haas ~ just treat it my valentine gift to all of you .. haas ~ well.. shan't digress further, back to the topic for today's programme ... " love as an game " ?

Someone once said to me ; “ Love is like a game ” Interestingly, we have a listener by the nick of vivianlly that has sms in now, stating the rules of this game. A simple rule; you break someone's heart, someone break your heart. What goes around comes around. Isn't it .. how true it is .. so have you been following the rules of the game all this while ? Take a moment to reflect while listening to this song ...

~Love game ~

The protagonist of this game has already made its exit.
The outcome of this game has long been recognized.
Whats left is only the lonely past.

Because of the rumours and slander that drift in that make others envy
Only at the expense of this relationship to remove her
telling everyone this is the end of the love game.

Loneliness kicked off again
waiting for my magnificent performance.
I was forced to once again embrace the lonely heart,
pretending to be satisfied.

Depression is like a piece of black cloth that has blindfolded my happiness.
Absence of the temperature in your heart shattered my dream into pieces.
Secular lifestyle has blocked my footsteps,
Fate just denied my payout of efforts.

My dedication was just seen as an form of act,
My infatuation has become one of the biggest mistakes
We all have lost the happiness of that period

chorus;

When love has no escape route,
When you are conquered by time,
Please do not forget the happiness we once have
The path of love that once belonged to us,
I still anticipate it, hoping for it

When love has no escape route,
When you give in to the worldly concessions,
Do not deny about the past that we once have,
For its a common memory shared by us,
& I will continue to chase it forever ..

& that was by Jay, his latest album " love game " . This song has been an hit, topping the charts for 8 consecutive weeks. Well, he has prove his worth as an love balland prince. This song not only mesmerized his hardcore fans, but me too. Nevertheless, his scandals with female artise is not losing to the popularity of his song too. The weekly magazine featuring him with a different female lead every now & then, causing lots of scandalous gossips among the field. Now I begin to wonder his latest album might just be how he feel afterall, treating love as an game ? haha & with that I shall end off today's programme. Hope everyone has a happy valentine day ! till then .. adieus ~ ”

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" Stanley ... who the hell is this DJ phileos ? he is scamming me ... can you do something about it ? " I spoke in a haughty tone.

" eeww .. Jay .. chill okays ~ we know he ain't speaking the truth .. just ignore him okays ! After all he's one of the popular DJ around, we can't afford to offend him as well ... he is just jealous of you .. don't take his words to heart ... come you are perspiring .. lemme wipe that sweat off your forehead . "

Stanley replied in a gayish tone.

" Don't touch me ... these people won't know exactly how I feel, & they act as if they know me .. tsk ... " I spoke in a angry tone.

" yess . you're right .. of course they won't know what a talented singer like you feel .. they are just jealous of your achievements .. "

Stanley spoke in a assuring tone to calm down the feelings of Jay.

Wavy hair, muscular arms, broad chest, strong hands, Roman nose, ripped abs, strong chin, chisled features, & that pair of dreamy bluey eyes has gathered Jay into a up & coming entertainment artise that has gain overwhelming popularity in recent months. Just when you ponder upon the fact that he might just be another showcase artise with no music talents, he prove his critics wrong with his debut hit " Love Phobia " . The unique singing vocal he possessed, singing with that heavily accented low tone, seemingly made the song alive & fully melt the thousands of heart that first listened to his song. Ever since, his entertainment company gaining on his momentum, immediately bring upon his 2nd album " Love Game ", enroute to create another music record in his career, breaking his previous hit record.

" Uew .. stanley .. can I've just a day of rest without any one bothering me at all ? No Fans, No Scandals, No music, No Gossips .. I'm just so tired ... "

" Erm .. its rather impossible .. the busy schedule & your popularity level ... "

" Uew .. shut it off ... I'm just tired of acting my current image .. tsk .. "

" I understand Jay .. but you must think from the company point of view too .. we are already giving you lots of leeway , especially towards your relationship with the other female artise .. the other entertainment companies are complaining to us, but be assured that we are protecting you & everything is under control ... "

" tsk .. come on .. this is what the industry want afterall .. NEWS !!! SCANDALS !! & moreover its just a game between me & those female artise .. don't tell me they really think of marrying me .. gosh ... ~ ridiculous !! "

" precisely .. so don't let it affect you, we still got a long day ahead of us .. lets ride on this momentum you're gaining to more stardom .. heck those love dovey thoughts those artise have ... hee " Stanley replied.

I just shut off my eyes, & went back to the world where I source for my own inspirations.

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When love has no escape route,
When you are conquered by time,
Please do not forget the happiness we once have
The path of love that once belonged to us,
I still anticipate it, hoping for it

When love has no escape route,
When you give in to the worldly concessions,
Do not deny about the past that we once have,
For its a common memory shared by us,
& I will continue to chase it forever ..

* audience clapping *

" thank you ... " I bowed my head to the audience, putting on my brightest smile to appreciate the gestures from the audience.

" wow .. a different rendition of " Love Game " . Your soft, soothing tune just inject another kind of feel towards this song, so different from Jay .. hahaha but even after a long absence, you never fail to mesmerize me with your angelic voice ... everyone .. lets welcome our guest for today ... Yuri !!! "

" thank you everyone .. hi I'm Yuri ... nice to see you all once again .. hehe " I put on my trademark smile.

" Oh ... such a sweet voice ... hahaha so where have you been all this while ? Alot of fans missed you ... including me .. hahah " the host jokingly said.

" uh .. firstly I'll like to apologise for my long absence too .. I missed you fans, including you too .. heh "

" awww .. did you heard that everyone ... Yuri missed me !!! " the host jokingly said, & blushed through Yuri words.

" heh .. well I've been travelling around during this period of time, taking a break from the industry, sourcing for my own inspirations. It has been rather fruitful, as I've seen alot & experiencing something totally different from my past usual routine. Somehow I felt I've grown alot during this period of time, & now I'm finally back. heh .. hopefully this new change in me will be able to bring my music to another level, influencing you all in a good way .. continuing to gain support from you all just like in the past .. heh "

" Oh .. we have definitely seen that change in you .. especially your rendition of the " Love Game " earlier on ..simply melt me .. hahaha " the host said.

" heh .. thank you ... " I bowed & smiled.

" hmmm .. but why choose to sing Jay's song ? " The host asked.

" uh .. all this while I never left the world of music once .. heh I still listen to new debut albums & stuffs .. heh .. this " Love Game " sort of captured my heart ... when I first listened to it ... heh "

" ooo ~ so may I asked Jay captured your heart, or the song ? hahahah "

" heh ... of course the song did ... heee "

" hahahah .. Jay .. don't feel upset ... on a better note .. this girl here appreciate your music talents more than your looks .. hahaha " The host jokingly said.

" heh .. well I can't deny that Jay really got the looks .. but I still love his music more .. I fell in love with his song when I first listen to it .. Somehow I could derive a feel deep down in his heart what he was trying to express through this song .. heh .. so I actually came up with my own rendition of " Love Game " expressing a different feel. "

" ooo ~ cool ... alrights we're nearing the end of the show .. & as usual we'll always play a mini game with our guest ... haha "

" heh .. uh-uh ~ " I nodded my head.

" look at this clipboard I'm holding on to now ... as you can see .. we have 3 pictures of male artise pasted on the board. the one on the left is Sebastian, the center one is Jay, & lastly on the right is Jacky Wu whom is standing right in front of you now ... hahaha " the host showed off a V sign on his hand, introducing himself .

" heh .. haha .. uh-uh ~ " I laughed at the host's actions.

" Okay .. here comes the question .. out of this 3 person, whom do you like to fall in love with ? "

* audience start to scream *

" erm ... heh .. " I was thinking hard in my mind whom to choose.

" please choose carefully .. as it might affect the other party's feelings .. especially the guy standing in front of you right now .. " the host jokingly acted out a expression of being hurt .

" heh .. haha ... this is really hard ... " I replied.

" haha .. whats so hard ... look at sebastian ... a guy with brawns but no ... ahems .. hahah & then Jay ... he has too much scandals, no doubt he has talent but he won't be faithful ... & lastly you have the most talented & faithful host standing in front of you now ..why hesitate .. hahaha "

" heh .. hahah ~ " I laughed

*drum rolls*

I pointed towards the picture of him.

* audience scream once again *

" awww ... why Jay ? you just break my fragile heart ... you prefer the good-looking ones afterall !! " the host jokingly said.

" heh .. its not really about the good looks ... I admire his singing talents .. & I always thought that the image he potray in front of others seem so different from how he sung his song out ... so I'm rather curious about that .. heh ... "

" Ohhh .. you sound like you really understand Jay .. hahaha ... anyways thanks for coming ... good to see you once again ... hope you've a flourising career just like in the past ... haha "

" thank you ... " I bowed & smiled.

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" Good job Yuri ... " Gina hugged me.

" Thanks .. Gina .... "

" so hows the feeling on stage after such a long time ? tee-hee ... " GIna excitingly asked me.

" Not too bad ... slowly relinshing the feel of being in the limelight again ... haha ~ " I replied.

" Aww .. good to have you back again ... I missed you so much during your absence ... " Gina hugged me again...

" heh .. me too ... good to have you back as my manager ... heh ... so I'll be expecting a tough time from ya once again .. heh ... "

" of course ... I'm the best manager around in the industry .. okays .. you can't expect any least from me .. haha " Gina spoke haughtily.

" Yes .. my manager ... so whats next ? " I replied obediently.

" Thats end of today .. start it slow yea .. you just got back .. won't want to rush you .. just slowly adapt to this pace once again .. okays ... we have a longer journey ahead .. tee-hee ... "

I nod in reponse.

" o .. not to forget .. the company actually has submitted your name to the TV reality series " We got Married " . so you might be one of the nominated candidates to get selected, & participate in the show .. tee-hee "

" huh ? <> " what TV reality series is that ? " my mind was bewildered upon hearing that.

" oo .. forget you ain't around for some time le ... of course you won't know what is it about ... <> is one of the most popular TV reality series now. It is a variety show whereby both the female & male artise will have a fake marriage, & acutally act out the lifestyle of living together, going for dates, acting as the real husband & wife ... " Gina explained.

" HUH ? me getting married ? "

I opened my mouth in awe , stunned by what Gina told me.

[ To be cont.. ]