爱の游戏

Love Game

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Someone once said to me ; “ Love is like a game ”

Eventually it'll result in someone winning it or losing it, who will emerge victorious ? who will end up the one being hurt ?

At that time, I believed firmly to this saying,

But now I finally know ; “ Love is not a game ”

It also requires genuine & sincere feelings in it. who dare to say that the winner won't feel that hurt ? or the loser might be the eventual winner afterall ?

I does not spare a glance to love,

when people around me sunk into the abyss of love, boasting to me about their stories, I was unaffected.

I adhere to my free and unrestrained principle, & even ridiculed them for their so called love, & scoffed at them when they are suffering from love.

Even when I've attempted to love someone,

I always said that, “ I still believed that life as a single can be more splendid ! ”

I was so self-righteous of my own “ principle ”to the extent that even when love passes by me, I'll just end off with a sigh,

But I will never ever have regrets,

I told myself “ this is life, Love can only be observed from afar, it cannot profane plays ! ”

I won't ever pity myself from passing by a love that was meant to be.

I do not believe in love, but I do not repel love !

The mentality of always holding it as a game began with a section of new love, & ending it with a section of a tolerant romance when it is no longer fresh.

“ Love is like a game ”, I simply match up to this annotation perfectly.

Because, I always emerge overall winner of this game.

She asked me before,

“ you really treat our love as a game ?

I replied without hesistation “ yes ! ”

“ including the time with me ? ” she replied.

I nodded silently.

Her hopes turned into despair as she reply me in tears,

“ now .. I finally know .. from the beginning you've been deceiving me all this while .. I know the rules .. but I always thought I could change you, or rather love can change you .. but it seems I've over estimated myself afterall, I've lose in this game of love. I've lose it convincingly. ”

Ever since she has slowly vanished away from my sight. When she said that in front of me, I only have infinite sympathy for her silliness, for attempting to change the impossible.

But, now I finally know that in this game, I'm the one that has lose thoroughly.

I do not have the sincerity to love all this while, thus I won't understand the sweetness of love, eventually losing the chance of a happy memory.

After going through so much, I just want to say ;

“ Love is not a game ”

It is the portrayal of a happy life; Even if it was a game, there won't be any eventual winners or losers. Because the existence of love tells us regardless of the self satisfaction as a winner or the fustration & sadness of a loser doesn't meant that you've score a victory in this game.

Its only when you finally understand the true meaning of happiness. treasuring & cherishing it, only then it is called true love.

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[ to be cont .. ]